Some things

I miss this blog. The anonymity of it. I can write pretty much what I want and know that neither my mother, neighbor or colleagues are reading what I have written. I can write about the "secret" stuff. And I do want to write about that stuff, I feel that I need to write about that stuff.

1) Number two. And I am not talking about p*o*o, just to make sure nobody misunderstands what I mean, since here in Swe*de number two is often referred to as just that - p*o*o. I mean baby number two.

I am an only child and I always liked being an only child. Not that I would have been unhappy if I'd had a sibling, but I have been very happy and contend without a brother or sister. That said, I always anticipated that with Stella being born and us drifting off into happy family life I'd leave TTC being us. Hmmm, what can I say? I do long after another child. Having Stella was/is the best thing that has evr happened to me. It completely fulfills me and I really want another child. Both for egoistic reasons (giving birth is just addictive and the sweet smell of the newborn is the best thing in the world) as well as for Stella. Stella deserves a sibling. Somebody to share her conception. Somebody she can totally relate to, somebody that will have the same feeling about their conception as she will have.

J feels the same - wants another child too. However, we do want to enjoy Stella for a bit longer, want to settle into happy family life. Maybe start again in a year or two. No rush. Nevertheless I think about it - every day.

2) Libi*do. Oh it's low. What can I do about it? I feel sorry for J and honestly I am a bit worried. I do want to get my mojo back. Soon.

There are more things, like my "fear/worries/unsureness" about how to tell Stella one day, but I'm going to write about that another day. Now I will enjoy my 4 weeks of summer vacation with J and Stella. Heaven! Below a recent picture of the little star.

Comments

[thalia]

the blog misses you, too, I'm sure. Come back nina, all is forgiven!

I know the mojo problem, let me know if you solve it!

[beagle]

She is a beautiful, beautiful girl!

When you feel like blogging about it . . . I'm curious what you've decided, learned, practiced about the bi/trilingual thing!

I would like to do it as well but not sure quite where to start (except maybe reading that book you suggested).

[beagle]

PS I suspect more sleep = more mojo.
'They' blame it on hormones - I blame it on exhaustion.

[Portlairge]

I'm with Beagle- It's all about the sleep. Stella is so beautiful and just perfect.

[Chas]

I don't blame you for wanting a private outlet. I like having my blog private-ish. I also don't blame you for wanting to try for #2. While TTC is a lot harder for people like us, it doesn't mean that we're not allowed to want siblings for our kids. Whenever the time comes...good luck!! Oh, and about the mojo...are you still breastfeeding? A lot of people say that breastfeeding kills their mojo and when they finally stop they get it back. For me personally, I couldn't tell a big difference.

[soralis]

She is adorable. Good luck with number 2 when you are ready.

[Lut C.]

I find myself thinking about when to try for number two, but I still feel content with number one. I can't imagine ever having that burning desire for a child again, but who knows the feeling might return.
We will try though, that's decided.

My husband has to do twice the convincing from before to get any action. I blame it on the hormones, because I'm not really exhausted anymore.

[Sara]

I'm itching for #2 too. I get it.

As for the libido, I think it may be a breastfeeding/hormonal thing. At least I hope so, since I'm experiencing it as well.

[Sara]

I'm itching for #2 too. I get it.

As for the libido, I think it may be a breastfeeding/hormonal thing. At least I hope so, since I'm experiencing it as well.

[Sara]

I'm itching for #2 too. I get it.

As for the libido, I think it may be a breastfeeding/hormonal thing. At least I hope so, since I'm experiencing it as well.

[Bea]

4 weeks of vacation! That might bring a little of the mojo back, but to be honest, the mojo level might be down for a while. J might be just as tired out, though, so maybe it's the same on both sides, in which case, no real problem? Hopefully you both end up happy, either way!

As for a sibling, I can understand what you mean about someone to share the conception. No rush, though - that's always nice.

Bea

[MoMO]

I know how it feels about #2 and this is why we decided to go for it again.

As for the libido...I have the same problem..I feel like it is always force when we do it.

[Anna]

100000 år sedan jag var här. Kul att "hälsa på dig" igen, och läsa lite uppdatering. Och apropå syskon... personligen rekommenderar jag 3 år mellan varje barn; PERFEKT på alla sätt. Syskon är alltid en styrka och tillgång. Själv har jag tre stycken. Det är en kick, och väldigt skoj, då vi alla är samlade på samma gång. Och det är precis det jag önskar för mina egna barn; att de skall ha nytta och stor glädje av varandra både som barn och vuxna. Kanske ni har en Ben om några år...? Är det möjligt att få samma donator...? Kram!

[Mrs G]

Hehe, I just started blogging again, for a similar reason to what you are thinking about. I have just recently started thinking about #2 (again, not the p*o*o*).

Kids wear you out, but ultimately, we are suckers for it and going back again seems natural. Although I must admit it is only now (almost a year since his birth) that I felt in control enough to even consider another one! Now, it seems my hormones are really running the show and telling me #2 is in the not too distant future.

Best of luck in your decision.