I called, and let's say, the news wasn't good. But, the news given made me and J discuss infertility again. It really had been a while that we discussed that topic. Can't say I missed opening Pandora's box, but what's done is done.
There is a plan.
I'm going to stop writing this blog now. Seems like the perfect time really. I'm not going to go too far though. I just feel the need to finish this story about how we tried, failed and succeeded to conceive the star, how we were pregnant and gave birth to the star and how much she enriched our lives. This blog is about her. What lies ahead in our infertility journey isn't about her (indirectly it is of course, we fought many battles having her, many of which we won't have to fight again to have another child).
So the end it it. I actually going to attempt to blog anonymously in the new place, but I'd be delighted if you wanted to continue to read. Really, I need all the support I can get, and I know of no other community being loving and supporting like the infertility community is - always. Leave a comment to this post with your e-mail address and I'll mail you where to find the new blog.
Good bye and Thank you so much. You all have saved my life more than one time. Many of you I have grown very attached to and I keep in my thoughts and my heart. Thank you!